How shocking to receive the news of a dear friend’s death on the screen of one’s BlackBerry, but that’s what happened this afternoon as I was retrieving messages after a haircut. I knew Pauline had been ill and had recently spoken to her sister Lucie. But I thought that trying new treatments was an optimistic move and that there was still hope. The message explained how shocked they all were at the suddenness of her death, so I was not alone.
I had been planning to write a letter to Pauline for her to read as she was going through her treatments. I wanted to let her know how much she had meant to me over the years. I’ll share some of it to let you know what an extraordinary woman Pauline was, but also to encourage you (and, note to self here) not to wait until it’s too late to share gratitude and love.
I started seeing Pauline for shiatsu treatments over 20 years ago when I was in tremendous physical pain and nothing else seemed to be working. She came highly recommended and I soon began to see improvements after experiencing her touch.
“At my second or third session I had overbooked my day and asked you if you could do the session in a compressed amount of time. Of course, this was way before I knew what an influence you would come to have on me. You simply and politely informed me that you did not vary your treatments, and I would need to schedule accordingly. I never asked for that special consideration again and began to be more mindful in my own planning behavior.
“When I first came to you I was in intolerable pain. Those early sessions were excruciating because you were working to get energy to flow in meridians that were blocked by years of stress, poor nutrition, willfulness and lack of self-care. Slowly, deliberately and with your special skill and sensitivity, you released the blockages and restored me not only to full health, but to a better state of being than I had ever experienced.”
Pauline and I became friends over the years. The last half dozen or so we would enjoy an annual December dinner together at a restaurant. Pauline gave her long-time clients a complimentary session as a gift each holiday season. For years I’d give her a piece of my handmade jewelry, but once I let go of my art form, I began to take her out for an annual celebration instead. I loved being in her company and received more than I gave.
I cherished each appointment I ever had with Pauline. When I would pull into her driveway I could feel my body relax and begin the process of her healing. It was an hour I knew I’d be fully taken care of, and I was.
I love Pauline. Always will. It’s a huge loss for all of us.




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September 12, 2010 at 10:18 pm
Brian Wah
Hi,
Just wanted to comment that I loved your post about Pauline and she was such a GREAT human being! I was a student of hers and everything you have written is how generous a teacher and practitioner and human she was.
I feel her living on through us and had an interesting visit from a butterfly the other day. I was wondering who that was!!
Take care,
Brian Wah
September 13, 2010 at 9:25 am
janepollak
@Brian
How lucky for you to have studied with Pauline. I look forward to sharing others’ memories of her on Wednesday evening at the memorial service. Will you be there?
September 16, 2010 at 1:03 am
Margo
Thank you Jane for sharing your gratitude for all the work dear Pauline did with you. That was a beautiful note. I started studying with her since 1992 when I lived in the UK. She was an amazing shiatsu master. I will miss her teaching tremendously and her as a person. We last exchanged emails during her last vacation in Mexico on Valentine’s 2010. I am so glad she had this vacation with her loving husband AJ.
Thanks again
Margo
September 16, 2010 at 10:50 am
Gretje Ferguson
I’m so sorry to hear this, Jane. I feel like I know her through your words. My condolences.
September 17, 2010 at 3:13 am
Brian Wah
Unfortunately, I have a lot on my plate here in Virginia. I wish I could have attended…maybe you could write a post about the service? I would love to hear some of the stories or memories that stuck out to you. I was not “friends” with Pauline but strictly a student (I was too nervous to ‘know’ her on a personal level…haha) so to read your personal account with her was GREAT!
I remember that after our tutorials with Pauline…she would talk well past our assigned learning time. Her passion for the art could have her talking about it forever.
And YES! I do feel so blessed to have had her teachings in my life. And as you have probably talked to her about…just because her “physical” form is not here does not mean the “learning” stops. Just shifts.
Thanks again for you wonderful post!
September 21, 2010 at 3:38 pm
janepollak
@Margo and Brian
It’s so interesting to hear from Pauline’s students. She had a very professional air about her. I feel so fortunate to have been able to see the more personal side as well. Truly a treasure in my life.
@Gretje
Thank you.
September 23, 2010 at 4:24 pm
Cynthia M. Gallant
It disheartens me to loose such a person with great deep knowledge in Shiatsu.
She will be greatly missed by all in the Zen and Quantum Shiatsu Community.
My condolences!
Cynthia M. Gallant, LMT
Zen Shiatsu Therapist
September 26, 2010 at 6:54 pm
janepollak
@Cynthia
Your community is challenged more than ever now to carry on Pauline’s good work and teachings. Thank you for commenting.
March 18, 2012 at 10:38 pm
paul
Hi Jane,
What a beautiful post about Pauline. I studied with Pauline and the experience truly shaped and defined every bit of my life from that moment forward. What an amazing woman, teacher and guide she was. Thanks for what you wrote. I too remember that drive down her driveway, knowing that that pathway was a portal into healing and exploration.
Paul Cunningham